A penny for her thoughts.

Tonight I realized that I am slowly learning that I can’t live life watching other people.  I have a tendency to keep tabs on peoples lives and their successes and downfalls but why? Whatever it is that they do doesn’t affect me.  I need to learn to just acknowledge other peoples doing and keep pushing forward.  You can’t live life comparing yourselves to others, hoping and wishing that you were like them in some aspect or another.  Think about it, you pick out bits of traits and qualities that you like in different people but you never really like EVERY SINGLE THING about them.  Be honest, you don’t.  It’s not mean it’s just reality because every one of us have flaws.  It just isn’t possible to be everything that you see in others because you are but one person.  You are you and no one else could be a better you than yourself.  The best that you could do is the best that you can be and strive for improvements.  Just don’t lose yourself in the process because your number one priority is and should always be to stay true to yourself.  I am never going to be the model, the musician, the so on and so forth but I am going to be happy.  That in itself is the greatest thing a person can be because so many look far and wide for happiness but not everyone finds it.

Happy.  

Such a simple word. 5 letters that make all the different in the world.   

Sometimes friendships change and you feel like you’ve lost them from your life…forever.  The truth is that the feeling of loss is only as long as you make it.  Sometimes we just need to suck it up and put in effort.  We have to weigh out the pros and cons.  Does the devastating feeling of heartbreak make sense?  Or is it worth it to patch things up?  I honestly don’t know anymore.  I just don’t know…  If it is worth it…to patch things up how do I even begin to do that?  Should I call? Text?  Where do I even start?  But then again, is it worth it?  

One of the worst freaking night.  I go to the library and it’s closed.  It’s America why are you shutting down a educational area for and Irish holiday?!  Then I drive to Kahala and missed my exit, drive pass, then turn around.  THENNNNNN some lady doesn’t understand the purpose of STOP sign and nearly hits me. THENNNN some lady down hit me and my iPhone flies out of my hand and lands into a nice big puddle.  Of course of all nights the place I want to study is packed and loud so I have to drive my butt home again.  Back at square one except now I’m so grouchy I don’t even want to study.  WKALJdakljwlknflafe